One of the artists that I watched on youtube and became excited also for shamanistic rituals and had even taken a course offering to integrate art in the vision quest, the famous quest own vision to ancient civilizations.
I do not know why, but the idea never left me. I had to wait 1 year (the course takes place once a year) in order to also throw myself in this fabulous quest.
For once in my life I had ventured without fear and the result was beyond any words.
The paintings were not only beautiful but they were true masters who could reach unprecedented wisdom. My subconscious had guided my actions to show the education I needed at the time of creation. It was practically a map of the state of my being at this very hour. I got to know me fairly.
|In between, mixed media sur toile, par Fanny Wild|
What I did not let appear behind my mask every day, appeared, grandiloquent images before me. Unable to escape the harsh truth.
I had sometimes cling to power and see what I did not want to hear.
Sometimes the painting made me reflect on the question of time, sometimes on women in the world and my femininity to me. Where was I in my integration to the woman? The larger spiritual issues and more intense were mentioned as life after death.
Gradually, I realized that I was the result of agreements concluded I had in my childhood and in my teens, as well as transposed in clear, Don Miguel Ruiz. It was time to take new, let the elders.
My life is transformed radically. My childhood dreams came true: to live in the wild, have horses, being a professional artist, resume power of my femininity. I understood deeply the terms of happiness, personal fulfillment …
But I’m just starting the healing process.
The path of possible opened.